Ok....I know that it has been some time and for that I apologize. If you read my last post - "De" or Re construction, you know that my life and plans for my ministry have changed quite a bit in the past few months. It has been a tremendously difficult time for me and my whole family. We are established in God's grace but the wait and trial seems to be wearing on for too long. The uncertainty has moved from unsettling to anxiety to the brink of a complete meltdown. I don't know exactly how to explain all of the circumstances and trials to you guys....but in summary, it has been a long winter!
Yet still I am sure that God's purposes and reasons for this will be for His glory. I am hopeful that He will be honored in all of this. But I (we) need resolution! I feel like I have lost direction, like I am wandering in the desert without rhyme or reason. I have not been fundraising as I don't know what vision to communicate to you all. I have been in process to obtain a position with local youth outreach program but the process is going slowly and we are running out of time due to the lack of fundraising we are running out of funds to live on....which doesn't help the current stress-o-meter. I basically need to know what our field will be, as well as raise a two thousand dollars and/or have a job in the next two weeks or ??????? I am not sure how we will make it work in February, move in with friends or family? Yet still GOD BE PRAISED! We have been living on support with no health care for six months and have made it thus far. I am worn out and weak, that is when God shows His strength because there is no way possible I should be standing but for the grace of Him!
I read this in Isaiah 30 today and found it fit the situation perfectly. This is my hope for this week, if you are praying for us remember these words.
Yet still I am sure that God's purposes and reasons for this will be for His glory. I am hopeful that He will be honored in all of this. But I (we) need resolution! I feel like I have lost direction, like I am wandering in the desert without rhyme or reason. I have not been fundraising as I don't know what vision to communicate to you all. I have been in process to obtain a position with local youth outreach program but the process is going slowly and we are running out of time due to the lack of fundraising we are running out of funds to live on....which doesn't help the current stress-o-meter. I basically need to know what our field will be, as well as raise a two thousand dollars and/or have a job in the next two weeks or ??????? I am not sure how we will make it work in February, move in with friends or family? Yet still GOD BE PRAISED! We have been living on support with no health care for six months and have made it thus far. I am worn out and weak, that is when God shows His strength because there is no way possible I should be standing but for the grace of Him!
I read this in Isaiah 30 today and found it fit the situation perfectly. This is my hope for this week, if you are praying for us remember these words.
Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.For the LORD is a God of justice.Blessed are all who wait for him!
People of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.”
Justice, compassion, no more weeping, and clear direction...I am in desperate need of these!
Justice, compassion, no more weeping, and clear direction...I am in desperate need of these!
Amen! Remember in our weakness HE is strong...it's at times like this, when we want to take the reins in our own hands and 'fix' the mess we think God is unable to! We will pray for the strength and wisdom for you and Renee to 'wait patiently' on him! He has a clear path for you, for some reason he has decided to keep it hidden at this time....God IS Good!!! ~Becky D
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